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It’s a morningjack!

Okay, for those who don’t understand the whole -jack thing.

One day the Elder Sprog came up to me and told me a long and complicated story about nightjacks and morningjacks.  See, they’re faires that come out at certain times (day and night, apparently. No, I never) and also in certain weather conditions (some morningjacks only come out when it rains, and they use their ears as umbrellas.)

So naturally, I stole them from her, and stuck them in my fic to be put in concentration camps and used for experiments. (What? I’m a great parent….).

The other day I sat down with oil pastels and drew a nightjack (it’s in a comment thread somewhere on my lj, but because it’s big and I have no camera the shot is blurry). Today I scribbled around on a morningjack.

While it’s far from pro, and I haven’t done art in ages, i kinda like it.

So here it is.

Tuesday Teaser

Still rattling away, and here’s a teaser.

I’m quite certain it makes bugger-all sense out of context.

“The wings won’t grow back of course,” says Tibbot. “Although the horns might, eventually.” He sighs. “We don’t know yet.”


I drag my gaze from the transforming fay to look at the man next to me. Tibbot’s face is grave, pale. He taps his pen against his clip-board, still caught up in watching the fay.


“And five,” he says, as the clock hand moves again. “Analik, you’re recording?”


“Yes, sir.”


I place the low hum that’s been just on the edge of my consciousness, barley noticeable. Analik’s turned the flat screen of his comp to face the jack in the box, its implant camera activated.


“Six,” says Tibbot, sounding pleasantly surprised. “Now that was better than I expected.”


Inside the glass cage, the jack squirms. Magic is sparking off him, faint little firework plumes of silvery dust.


“This, unfortunately,” says Tibbot, never taking his eyes off the captive jack, “is where the problem comes in. We get the magic back, but we’ve not yet found an effective way of stopping it. There comes a point when the magic is just too much, and then we get this-”


The jack doubles over, fingers clutching at his stomach, and vomits blood. It splatters thick as paint against the glass, then runs in lurid streaks down the inside of the case.


“What do you get, Analik?”


“Six minutes, 37 seconds, sir.”






“Well.” Tibbot taps his pen faster. “It’s certainly an improvement.”


The jack is on one knee now, gushing up the liquified remains of his inners, clawing through the mess of blood and organs streaming down the inside of the plasglass. I’m feeling hot and sick, a corona of darkness tightening around my mind as the Pacifier takes effect. I try to slow my breathing, tell my uncooperative heart to pace each beat, but the darkness edges ever-fucking closer, then smothers me.

So little to say so much time to say it.

Keeping my head occupied with productive stuff.

Have sworn on some religious tome or other that I will hit 20k on Null & Void today.

I’m currently on 18k, so I see that as totally feasible.

ETA: 20 k, bitches.  *grins*

Back at dance

First day back at dance, after a month-long break. (Finances and holiday commitments)

It was pretty good to go back, and I needed to do something that wasn’t wangsting. 😀

I even caught up on some of my writing this morning, so that made me feel productive. Beyond that, they were words that made me happy. I still have pretty much no idea where the story is going – a character I thought was going to die at this point in the story is still clinging to life. Ah well, it gives me an opportunity to torture him a bit more before I drop the final curtain on his part of the story.

Oh, and it gives me some more plot, which always helps a tad.

What am I doing?

Maybe someone else can help, ’cause I certainly have no idea. I have no idea what I’m writing.

However, that won’t stop me from doing a tuesday teaser to celebrate passing the 10k mark.


-retribution retribution retribution-

“Where are we going?” Asher asks.

Em weaves her head, contemplating the question, then smiles slyly at Gavs. I can feel this hear this inside my heart. It’s good to be back together again. A warm light swells inside my chest, makes me ready to burst out singing, the way we did when we first went to war, a perfect machine.

It’s Gavs who answers in our voice, smooth, slick, well-oiled. All the rust is gone from our thoughts and throats. To the past and future, he says.

The sun is rising, and the long shadows of the stripped trees dance over the unmarked graves, the mist is thinning. We walk over the dead. Now and then, a fist of stone stands raised, but they are smooth, the writing long since burned off by the seasons.

The grass is long and cold and yellow, dead stalks fall behind us, leaving the mark of our passage on the cemetery. Here the mass graves of the unhuman, here the monument to the ones who fell fighting against enemies unknown. Here the round faceless statue of a child’s grave.

On we walk, and the birds announce our entrance. Somewhere, a jackal howls, nervous at our approach. The last faint traces of mist evaporate now, and the sun rises eyebright, making us all squint.

There, at the very heart, the iron curclicues of the enclosed graveyard.

“What-” says Asher, but we shush her with smiles. Her fear is thick enough to cloud the air.

It is the sacred enclosure of the fallen avatars. There are no guards posted, of course. They would never believe that anyone – even their dreaded unhumans – would think to break the sanctity of this place. Idiots. We’ve done it before and we’ll do it again – after all where better to hide a key than in the very pocket of the slave-master?

“We’re going in there.” Asher doesn’t even question, merely says it with a dull resignation as we draw up to the dew-webbed gates.


Em presses her tattoed wrists against the iron, matching the curls and twists of it to her own skin. The metal is wet, colder even than icicles and I feel the pressure against my own wrists, against Gav’s and in our heads, the keys turn and the gears tumble.

With a snap, the lock falls to the ground, and the gate swings open before us.

Enter, says Em, and bows low like a palace courtier, her hand a sweep of flourishes and music.

Fifteen grey statues rise above us, empty-faced, their hands resting on the pommels of their swords of office, their expressionless steel masks identical.

“Oh dear gods and goddesses, you’re going to get us slaughtered,” Asher mutters as the gate slides shut behind us. The mist here in the centre is still thick, curling between the statue legs, around the long blades of the unsheathed swords, and under the round shields resting against every statue’s left leg.

The past and future, whipers Em, and reaches out one hand to brush the fingers of the nearest. These are the fifteen avatars. Inside each stone corpse is the skull from a previous incarnation of the God-king. We weave between them with the cold damp mist, until we reach a trinity at the very heart of the circle. These statues are older, flecked and mottled with moss and lichen and pigeon shit. There are droppings at their feet – the jackal has been here, marked his territorry.

Emlin, Gavril, Rafik – we walk in synchronicty to the central three, and raise our hands so that we can just touch the very tops of the hilts. The stone is warm under my fingers, and the echo heat of the others floods down my arm as each of us makes contact. We wait for Gavril to sing.

His throat rumbles, and then his mouth opens, stretched wider, almost unhinged, and the music of us, of our dead master, pours from him in triumph and sorrow and anger. Retribution retribution retribution, and under all our fingertips the stone crumbles and flame devours it. The swords, released from their hiding places, fall.

I catch mine before it touches the ground, swing it so the flames ripple the air. I am me. The sword tight in my hand and once again I am the construct of sacrifice, Rafik. Emlin of art. Gavril of song. We are what we were, even if there is no longer anyone to guide us.

Joy surges through me, and the sword flares as I wield it, leaving pale after-images in the morning air. I tilt my head, and Em and Gavs line up with me, swords ready, burning brighter than the weak sun. Around us the dry grass blackens and the smoke rises from it thick and grey, but the hilt feels cold and clean and hunrgy in my hands. We are whole.

“Oh holy fuck” says Asher. “How the fuck are we going to hide you lot now?”

My home gym

Also known as, my home.

After my visit down to cape town where I realised I was now officially the fattest person in the family, I decided to do something about it:  clean my house.  That and garden.


Dailyplate is giving me some crazy readings, none of which I actually trust – 870 calories burned doing housework and gardening? Uh…yeah. Whatever.  I am noticing a difference in my arms already though — obviously hauling around watering can after watering can to water my new veggie beds is paying off. (I don’t have a hose, and I’m considering not getting one.)

Null and Void went slowly today, I wrote about another 600 words, if even. Slacker Cat is a slacker.

I did like bits and pieces though, so at least I’m not going to delete the whole thing in a tantrum any time soon.

stats:  7126 / 90 00o



On we go, until the sky is greying, and the first sparrows wake to astonish the sky. Pigeons wheeze in the eaves of the buildings around us. The last of the stars are almost gone, and only the signal star still revolves, lamp-lit and singing so high that my ears ache.

Tuesday Teaser

Read the Epic of Gilgamesh today. Man, was Gilgamesh a twunt.

Scrapped Firedancer has a new new name – Null and Void. We’ll see how long that one lasts.

So now we’re at 3228 / 90 000. Go Cat Go!!!

In the interests of jumping on the Tuesday Teaser Bandwagon, I present you summat from this morning’s 1500 words. Not all of it, lucky you.


The Eye.

I did not just see The Eye.

I lean forward, finger jabbing at the volume control. Dev begins wailing again, but softly this time – just his usual constant whine. I thumb the up button, and the tv reporter’s voice drowns him out.

– appears to have been some kind of escape. Details are uncertain as yet, but we can tell you that the Inquisition has apprehended at least one of the Compound inhabitants.”

Flash cut to The Eye’s face; the whites of his eyes are ivory yellow in his dark face, and his crown of hair looks wilder and thicker. He snarls into the camera, and struggles in the grip of the two robed men holding him.

He’s not doing anything. Why is he not doing anything? There should be storms, and winds. He should be raising all of the air against these bastards.

Instead he struggles like a human. Then I see the small plastic ties on his wrist as the the camera pans behind his back. They’re striped, deceptively candy cane bright.

Null-strips. So it’s true.

I crawl closer to the telly and put my fingers to The Eye’s screaming mouth. They’ve blanked out whatever he’s saying, and I realise that this is a recording. Of course. I don’t even know why I thought it was live. I drop my fingers.

Depending on when this happened, he could already be Nulled.

The image flicks back to the reporter, who sits primly behind her fake desk and enunciates at her unseen audience.

His Divinity, Godking of Cero, Seventh Avatar of the Sovereign Voice, has declared that there will be a public execution of the godtraitor on his Feast Day. Plans have already been made to include the Justice in the festival program, and we all are sure to enjoy it!” She smiles bright and false, her white teeth perfect and clamped trap-jaw tight.

Holy fuck.

I sink back onto my haunches, and breathe again.

Today’s gardening was limited to planting out some flowers (I have already forgotten what the were…dahlias?) bush beans, kale, chard, and marigolds.